I read somewhere that the brain doesn't like unfinished stories. I’m not talking about books or movies. I’m talking about that one Tuesday afternoon when you were mid-sentence and the vibe shifted. Or that night you said goodbye at the door, and it felt like there were about a thousand invisible words hovering in the air between you, but neither of you had the courage to catch them.
So, you take them home with you instead. Those unsaid words. You tuck them under your pillow, and you wonder why you can't sleep. You wonder why, even after weeks of silence, their face is the first thing that greets you when you wake up. It’s annoying, isn’t it? It feels like a haunting. Like your mind is a house and they’ve moved into the guest room without paying rent.
I’ve spent a lot of time—probably too much—trying to figure out why some people stick to our thoughts like honey, while others just slide right off. I used to think it was because they were "The One." I thought my brain was trying to tell me something profound about destiny. I’m not sure about that anymore. I think... maybe it’s simpler. And a lot more human.
We keep thinking about them because we’re trying to finish the puzzle. But the thing is... they took half the pieces with them when they left.
There is this psychological thing—I won't get all textbook-y on you—but it basically says we remember the things that are incomplete much better than the things that are finished. It’s why you remember the waiter who forgot your drink, but not the one who was perfect. Your mind is trying to "close the loop."
With them, the loop is wide open. You didn't get the closure. You didn't get the honest talk. You didn't get to say, "Hey, this really hurt me." Or maybe you did say it, but they didn't really hear it. So your mind just keeps replaying the tape. Maybe if I said it differently. Maybe if I waited. Maybe if I hadn't texted first that one time.
It’s exhausting. But I think I understand why we do it. It’s a way of staying connected, isn’t it? As long as you’re thinking about them, they aren't really gone. The conversation is still happening, even if it’s only happening inside your own head. It’s a ghost-connection. It’s safer than real connection, but it’s a lot more lonely.
And then there’s the imagination part.Our imaginations are dangerous. They are beautiful, but they are so, so dangerous when we’re lonely. When someone leaves a gap—a silence, a distance—our brain rushes in to fill it. We don't fill it with reality. We fill it with the best possible version of them.
You’re not thinking about the person who was late to dinner or the person who gave you one-word answers. You’re thinking about the person who looked at you that one way, that one time. You’re thinking about the person you imagined they were. You’ve taken a few bright scraps of a person and sewn them into a whole golden robe. And now you’re wondering why you’re so attached to the robe.
I’ve done this. I’ve lived in that imaginary version of a relationship for months. It’s a comfortable place, but there’s no air in there. You’re just breathing your own breath, over and over.
I think... maybe... we keep them in our heads because we’re afraid of the silence that will come when they finally leave. If I stop thinking about them, what will I think about? Who will I be if I’m not the person who is "in love with them" or "hurt by them"? It’s a weird kind of grief. We’d rather have the pain of the memory than the emptiness of the absence.
It’s okay, you know. To be "stuck" for a little while. I think we’re often too hard on ourselves about how long it takes to move on. We treat our hearts like they’re machines that just need a software update. But hearts are more like gardens. You can't force a flower to grow, and you can't force a weed to die just by yelling at it. You just have to keep tending the soil. You just have to keep showing up for yourself.
I’m not sure if there’s a "cure" for thinking about someone. I think, eventually, you just get bored. One day you wake up and you realize you haven't thought about them for ten whole minutes. And then an hour. And then a day. And it doesn't feel like a victory; it just feels... quiet.
The "Oh... that's why" moment usually comes when you realize you weren't actually missing them. You were missing the feeling of being seen. Or the feeling of potential. Or the person you were when you were with them. You were missing a version of yourself that you think they took with them.
But they didn't. They couldn't.
You’re still here. The "you" that can feel that deeply, that can imagine that vividly—that belongs to you. Not them. They were just the mirror. A bit of a cracked mirror, maybe. But you’re the one who provided the light.
So, if you check your phone tonight, or if you find yourself re-reading an old thread... try not to be mad at yourself. Just say, "Oh, I’m doing the loop again." And then maybe, if you can, go find a piece of the puzzle that actually belongs to you. Something real. A glass of water. A book. The feeling of your feet on the floor.
The story isn't over. It’s just changing. And you’re the one holding the pen now.
(The loop doesn't break all at once... it just gets a little wider every time you choose to breathe through it.)
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